I sat somewhere under the flying plants; The entire night, I couldn’t shut my eyes; I kept wondering and pondering over what I had just been told; I sat for too long as to see the suns rise.
I was told how I and only I had the power to stop the destruction; I was told how I was the reason too; I had to learn the ways of my powers; For, not he but I was The Saviour Universe was looking up to.
I wasn’t ready for the task; I couldn’t save the Universe even if I wanted; The things I had seen all through those innumerbale lives were too much for me; Every single second, by them, I was haunted.
And also, there was another reason to not do what was asked of me; For as much as I wanted to prevent the Thousand Days of Pain; There was some part of me that didn’t want me to; A part that held me back again and again.
I detested that moment every time it arrived; I hated myself for being the reason behind; I imagined if there was something I could do; But there was also something that told me to sit back and keep fighting my desires and my mind.
After having been through that moment thousands of times; After knowing and having seen the Past, Present and Future bind; I was afraid of making any changes; All of it had become a part of me and to all the pain and suffering, I had become completely blind.
I wanted to stop witnessing The Night of Thousand Tears; I wanted to stop facing my fear; I wanted to run away as far as I could; Before that moment arrived, I just wanted to disappear.
But now, the things had changed; Now, if I wanted to run away, I had to do that knowing I could have prevented the pain and death; Now, if I didn’t learn and try to prevent the destruction somehow; I would go down in the books of History as being the reason behind the event and its aftermath.
The truth was told to me; I was told that I had the ability to stop what I began; But there was still a lot more to know and learn; As I still had no idea for who or what I was and why was I such an important part of this plan!
I still had to learn the truth about me; I still had to come to terms with the fact how I caused the destruction; For all through those thousands of lives, I had never been able to figure it out; Now, having met my master, I was looking forward to grasp his knowledge and follow his evey single instruction.