You Have No Idea

All my life I have yearned for only one thing; one person; YOU!

Every single day for the past 2782 days, I have woken up every morning wishing for you to hold my hand and on all those nights, I have laid in my bed turning sides, remembering you every minute; seeing your face in the darkness of glistening skies.

You have no idea how hard it has been for me. I know, you didn’t promise me anything. I know, you never told me you’d come. But… I hoped! I didn’t expect you to come, but I sure did hope that you would. Every time something happened in my life, every time I went through something, every sadness, every heart break, every happiness, every achievement; I wanted to tell you everything.

I wanted to tell you every time I screwed something up. I wanted you to know everything I messed up. I wanted to tell you how miserable, pathetic and vulnerable I was.

You have no idea how much I wanted you to scold me for my mistakes.

You have no idea how much I wanted you to treat me like you had some kind of authority over me.

You have no idea how much I yearned for it. Every little bit of it.

It has been really hard for me. I have screwed up my entire life. But trust me, you were the only thing, the only person I invested in ever-so-fondly and never did I once regret it.

You are my place of solace. You are my safe house.

In a place full of sharp pointy stones and thorns, you are my flower-bed.

I know you are not here anymore. And I know you will never be. But for me, you will always remain.

I know there is nothing that I could say to change what happened. All I want you to know is, you are the Sun to my Earth, the Earth to my moon. No matter where you go, or at what speed you move, I will always be around!

P.S. You Have No Idea!

Categories: love

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