I stopped living years ago. I was alive, I was breathing, my heart was beating too; but I wasn’t actually living.
I don’t even remember what it was like to have an actual life. I don’t know what it is like to be around people. Laugh, smile, cry and be happy with them. Rather, I didn’t know that.
Then, I met you. And the whole world turned upside down. I didn’t fall in love with you. I flew in love! It was as if the entire Earth was a sheet of cotton on which you and I were walking and dancing our way through.
You made me human. You made me realize and understand what a human should be like. You taught me ‘Humanity’. Without you, I was just a machine. A robot!
Though you never really loved me like I loved you, but whatever you did, I can say now, it was more than enough. A lot more than I deserved.
I have never been someone reliable. I am irresponsible, eccentric, annoying, ignorant and arrogant. I can’t change. I have tried. I can’t!
I thought I could. But the fact is, no matter how hard someone tries to change his/her original programming, it just leads to a lot more glitches and broken codes.
And then it is just a game of repairing, rewriting, reviewing, and repeating it again and again.
It never ends.
There is one thing that I am more than sure of and need more than everything else. That one thing has been the only constant over all these years.
I want you to be happy. And I… well, I cannot make you happy.
I can try. I might even succeed. But it will be for a week or a month or a few months at most. Then I will again say something insensitive or incriminating and you’ll end up getting hurt all over again.
I am not meant to be a Human! I know I am supposed to be one. But the reality is, I am not ‘MEANT’ to be!
You are and will always continue to be a part of me that I will love beyond bounds. I will continue to love you ever-so-fondly. But… from a distance. I don’t want to ruin you anymore.
P.S.
You are the love
The light in me
You are the Sun, the Moon, the entire Universe
You are ‘THE LIFE IN ME’
Categories: love
This is deep and beautiful. Filled with emotion.💛🌸
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i din’t felt in love but flew in love… beautiful one… love the flow of it. thank you for sharing
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This is written beautifully
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Beautiful words Sadah
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Full of emotions, great!!
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” I will continue to love you ever-so-fondly. But… from a distance. I don’t want to ruin you anymore.” – this reminds me of someone from my past…
this is so beautiful ❤️❤️❤️
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Thank you. Hope it is a good memory…
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Beautiful
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Thank you.
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If you can right this , there is someone inside you who is caring and loving.If you gets angry towards someone may be that’s the way you showed your affection.
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Anger isn’t a way to show affection. Is it?
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Sometimes it is.For example :a mother’s love is pure.Isn’t your mother scold you sometimes.So there’s nothing like a perfect relationship.Everything will work out along with mutual understanding but most of 7s didn’t do that
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Well, even on that premise, love can’t blossom if one person is continuously lost, angry and frustrated.
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If someone is really angry or frustrated towards a person it means that person is very important and different from others ie, you love that person and consider his / her as yours.You believe that whatever happens that person won’t leave you.
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Eventually, everyone leaves.
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This was amazing 💯
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Thank you.🙂
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Very deep and emotional words. Beautifully written.
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𝘍𝘦𝘭𝘵 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧….❤️𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵 𝘵𝘰𝘶𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨!
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This is truly beautiful… ♥️
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Thank you.
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