The Life In Me


I stopped living years ago. I was alive, I was breathing, my heart was beating too; but I wasn’t actually living.

I don’t even remember what it was like to have an actual life. I don’t know what it is like to be around people. Laugh, smile, cry and be happy with them. Rather, I didn’t know that.

Then, I met you. And the whole world turned upside down. I didn’t fall in love with you. I flew in love! It was as if the entire Earth was a sheet of cotton on which you and I were walking and dancing our way through.

You made me human. You made me realize and understand what a human should be like. You taught me ‘Humanity’. Without you, I was just a machine. A robot!

Though you never really loved me like I loved you, but whatever you did, I can say now, it was more than enough. A lot more than I deserved.

I have never been someone reliable. I am irresponsible, eccentric, annoying, ignorant and arrogant. I can’t change. I have tried. I can’t!

I thought I could. But the fact is, no matter how hard someone tries to change his/her original programming, it just leads to a lot more glitches and broken codes.

And then it is just a game of repairing, rewriting, reviewing, and repeating it again and again.

It never ends.

There is one thing that I am more than sure of and need more than everything else. That one thing has been the only constant over all these years.

I want you to be happy. And I… well, I cannot make you happy.

I can try. I might even succeed. But it will be for a week or a month or a few months at most. Then I will again say something insensitive or incriminating and you’ll end up getting hurt all over again.

I am not meant to be a Human! I know I am supposed to be one. But the reality is, I am not ‘MEANT’ to be!

You are and will always continue to be a part of me that I will love beyond bounds. I will continue to love you ever-so-fondly. But… from a distance. I don’t want to ruin you anymore.

P.S.

You are the love

The light in me

You are the Sun, the Moon, the entire Universe

You are ‘THE LIFE IN ME’

Categories: love

26 replies

  1. ” I will continue to love you ever-so-fondly. Butโ€ฆ from a distance. I donโ€™t want to ruin you anymore.” – this reminds me of someone from my past…

    this is so beautiful โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ

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  2. If you can right this , there is someone inside you who is caring and loving.If you gets angry towards someone may be that’s the way you showed your affection.

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      • Sometimes it is.For example :a mother’s love is pure.Isn’t your mother scold you sometimes.So there’s nothing like a perfect relationship.Everything will work out along with mutual understanding but most of 7s didn’t do that

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      • If someone is really angry or frustrated towards a person it means that person is very important and different from others ie, you love that person and consider his / her as yours.You believe that whatever happens that person won’t leave you.

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  3. ๐˜๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ต ๐˜ญ๐˜ช๐˜ฌ๐˜ฆ ๐˜ ๐˜ธ๐˜ข๐˜ด ๐˜ณ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ฅ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ ๐˜ข๐˜ฃ๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ต ๐˜ฎ๐˜บ๐˜ด๐˜ฆ๐˜ญ๐˜ง….โค๏ธ๐˜ฉ๐˜ฆ๐˜ข๐˜ณ๐˜ต ๐˜ต๐˜ฐ๐˜ถ๐˜ค๐˜ฉ๐˜ช๐˜ฏ๐˜จ!

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