Never once in all these years have I ever had a feeling of wanting you or desiring you. It was always a need; a necessity.
I need you in the same way I need food, water or oxygen. I need you like the Earth needs the Sun, or like the Stars need the Universe to reside.
I am like a star out there somewhere and you are my Universe. I never wish to be apart from you.
And when it happens, I break, I burst, I form dust and spread across space-time, never to be seen again. Or at best, I become something so terrible that I suck in everything good that comes near me and tries to help.
Without you holding me, I become self-destructive. And that is what worries me, irritates me, frustrates me and then, with you not being there and all these emotions racing through me, I turn into a giant ball of fire and explode.
You are the force that holds me together. Had it not been for you, I would have drifted into a pocket dimension somewhere deep into the unexplored space. No one would have known that I even existed.
I don’t want you to hold me, I don’t want you to protect me, I don’t want you to do anything for me!
But yes, I do need you to do everything for me. Because if you won’t, I will just cease to exist.