All my life I have yearned for only one thing; one person; YOU!
Every single day for the past 2652 days, I have woken up every morning wishing for you to hold my hand and on all those nights, I have laid in my bed turning sides, remembering you every minute; seeing your face in the darkness of glistening skies.
You have no idea how hard it has been for me. I know, you didn’t promise me anything. I know, you never told me you’d come. But… I hoped! I didn’t expect you to come, but I sure did hope that you would. Every time something happened in my life, every time I went through something, every sadness, every heart break, every happiness, every achievement; I wanted to tell you everything.
I wanted to tell you every time I screwed something up. I wanted you to know everything I messed up. I wanted to tell you how miserable, pathetic and vulnerable I was.
You have no idea how much I wanted you to scold me for my mistakes.
You have no idea how much I wanted you to treat me like you had some kind of authority over me.
You have no idea how much I yearned for it. Every little bit of it.
It has been really hard for me. I have screwed up my entire life. But trust me, you were the only thing, the only person I invested in so fondly and never did I once regret it.
You have no idea, you were my place of solace. You were my safe house.
In a place full of sharp pointy stones and thorns, you were my flower-bed.
You have no idea….